Will it be OK?

I find myself reliving the moment she let go of her life

It's so hard to bear. 

So hard to stand this life without her in it.  

Failure

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I can't help but fear I failed you ...
That day when you made me aware of the lump,
I didn't flip and send you out to the Dr then.
I let you tell me that some other procedure was more important.

I failed you ..

Now you're gone ...
I won't get to see you again,
I won't get to call you
talk to you
visit with you
show you my new hair color..

I've failed you ..
I know that I have

Had I not failed,
you may still be here with me.